
Masks
Don't be fooled by the face I wear, for I wear a thousand masks, And none of them are me. Don't be fooled, for goodness sake, don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure, that confidence is my name and coolness is my game, And that I need no one. But don't believe me.
Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in aloneness, in fear. That's why I create a mask to hide behind, to shield me from the glance that knows, But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance, if it's followed by love. It's the
only thing that can liberate me from my own self-built prison walls. I'm afraid that deep down I'm nothing and that I'm just no good, And that you will reject me.
And so begins the parade of masks. I idly chatter to you. I tell you
everything that's really nothing and Nothing of what's everything, of what's crying within me.
Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying. I'd really like to be genuine and spontaneous, and me. But you've got to help me. You've got to hold out your hand.
Each time you're kind and gentle, and encouraging, Each time you try to understand because you really care, My heart begins to grow wings, feeble wings, but wings.
With your sensitivity and sympathy, and your power of understanding, You alone can release me from my shallow world of uncertainty.
It will not be easy for you. The nearer you approach me, The blinder I may strike back.
But I'm told that Love is stronger than strong walls, And in this lies my only hope.
Please try to beat down these walls with firm hands, But gentle hands, for a child is very sensitive.
Who am I, you wonder. I am every man you meet, and also every woman that you meet, And I am you, also.
-Author Unknown

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Perhaps 'masks' are tools of strength, vs. veil for weaknesses. I utilize archetypes in my personal practices. Archetypcal structures are 'tools' for personal growth, not a means to hide 'true identity'.
What is true identity? When we say 'I want...' which 'I' is making the demand?
Do we have collective I's? I've been working with The Fourth Way philosophies, and the 'work' is to work on oneself. Self-examine, self-awareness and personal growth.
Gurdjieff believed that there were 3 ordinary ways to growth and development:
fakir, monk, and yogi.
The fakir, works on the physical
The monk, works on the emotional
The yogi, works on the mental
but there's a fourth way.
Understanding.
If man does not understand, how does he know what to work on? How can he accept what must be changed?
As a fourth way student, I recognize the tools available to me and I use them for betterment of the self. I have no need to veil or hide who and what I am - because I understand who and what I am. I use the masks as tools, for the 'work' to be done.
The Fakir, comes from Sufi idealism.
The Monk, comes from Christian/Buddhist idealism.
The Yogi, comes from Hindi/Sikh idealism.
The Fourth Way, is highly Satanic.
* Conscious labor
* Intentional suffering as a means to an end.
* Self-awareness
* Constant self-observation
* Self-remembering, muscle memory
Activism is a Satanic act. If you are not active in your own evolution - you are passive, and continue to slumber.
Awaken, and understand.
Cora'Sahn
Wizard of the Terrible Darkness
Cult of Cthulhu
